Barbie's Diary

Hello i'm a Barbie. (i wish that i was) A normal girl that lived in tough world. I have no father. My parents are widowed that i never know what the reasons are.
I love to write, daydreaming, sleep, and listening to music. Enjoy my diary :)

That was a bright day. When you, my pre school first love suddenly text me on facebook. Asking how was i am and asking my Blackberry Messenger pin.
I never thought this before that you would greet me first. So that i reply to your text and said that i was well. From that moment on, we texting on BBM and then you said that you wanna know about my address. I gave it to you and you were come over to my house.
What a wonderful day. I would meet you again. My first love. I see no change on you. Your smile. Still the same smile that make me fell to you. I've felt it. I've felt the atmosphere when you drive me for a while in your car. You asked me "Do you like Coldplay?" i replied. "Yeah i loved them so much." and then you turn on your tape and said "Well this is the newest album of them" and smiled to me.
You know? i'm so melting. Lol. Maybe this is silly. I have a boyfriend already and now you came to me. Oh no lol lol lol this may not be a feeling. You know that this feeling should never come again.
From that moment on, i decide to contact all our pre school friend and gathered them to a little party. You know what i planned for? I just wanna meet you again :'(
But strange moment come. You. You're change. You never even text me again. You just text me to ask about the gathering. And never ever ask about my condition again. Never care about me again. Never. You are changed. Even i start to text you first, you just read it and not replied it. I'm wondering why you not reply me. Am i wrong? Do i have mistake? I'm so confused. That mini heart attack hurt my little heart.
And then, Finally that day come. I'm so excited. What do make me so exicted? Of course you! I can't wait 'till i can see your face. But what? You ignored me :'(
Even i wanna ask you to take a photo with me, You avoid me. Why? You know? I'm hurted! So hurteeeddd!!!!! You know you throw me a bunch of knives and thrust me. Made a big hole of wounded. Is it what you gave to me? For me? Who waited for you for several years ago?
I remembered it that you said to me that i'm ugly. That i'm fat. That was when we were on pre school. And yesterday you just told me that i'm pretty and slim. And today? You pushed me away to the deepest sea. Thank you! Thank you so much for hurting me again!
I'm sink deep in the sea and you laughed above me. Thank you. At least i have a lesson. Don't ever trust first love :')
You taught me to strong :')
You know i'm hurted. so hurted. I'm glad to see you married soon. With PRETTY enough girl on your side. Smiling and holding your arms. I will smiling stare at you and wave my hand. Someday.



This wounds won't seems to heal...